In my 30+ years of life I have still struggling to get a good reason for playing the "game". To me life is about experience, and the quality of the experience is not important, just the experience itself. It's not only what you do, it is also what you decide...

I agree that I'd rather feel than not.  Your quest for reality is admirable, and I love that you're doing it by asking these unanswerable questions.  Because in my experience, the richness and diversity of life is obtained through asking these kind of qu...