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I am a blessed single mommy of 2 girls, ages 22 months, and 4 and 1/2 yrs old. I am so inlove with my 2 girls, however, I do not know how to even begin to love ME. I do not even know who I am as a person. How is it possible to love others when I cannot even love myself??
My girls are my every day life. Before,... I just existed, and I didn't care if I lived or died. Now, I have 2 children to care for full time, and they are now my purpose to go on, but it is such a daily struggle. I am a lost soul. I am a lost gypsy continually moving from place to place, and from person to person, ...trying to find my way in this life. I am searching to find my inner self, and happiness, peace, love, and some security in this life, and so much more... Who am I? What is my sole purpose for being here? It is terrifying not knowing these things and not knowing what to expect... I just exist, and go through the daily motions of living. I live for my girls. I do not live for me. I do not know how to. There is so much more to life than what I am living, and i know this, but I struggle to find the way to find it...
My girls depend on me and need me so much. It is getting harder to keep going through the every day motions of living, and not knowing who I am, and where I am going, and what to expect tomorrow, and in the future... It is terrifying not knowing. I also fear for my children's future. I want to find some inner happiness, and live life fully, and I do not know how to. I want to give so much more of my SELF to my girls, and I do not know how to. I feel blessed to have my children, and I also feel so ashamed because they deserve so much more in a Mommy. How can I teach and guide my own children in this life, when I am so lost from within...??
This is me, ...a lost soul, ...a "lost gypsy", ...and a little of what I struggle with daily in this life... Can anyone relate to me, and help guide me in any way?

I was looking to post a photo, and found this one, and it spoke to me. I could see myself and my struggles. To explain,...I see the beautiful bright light from afar, ...however, I am stuck in these thick clouds of snow, and I do not know how to find my way,...my purpose,....and I continually struggle to find my way out of this never ending fight to reach the LIGHT where my answers I am seeking may be...hopefully, but I do not know.
How can I be a good Mommy and an "example" for my 2 girls, when I do not have it all together myself?? I can NOT be a good role model! And, so I am seeking any guidance to help direct me and put me on the right road that I should be following to find my way.

THANKYOU TO ANYONE,... IN ADVANCE, FOR YOUR THOUGHTS, GUIDANCE, and SUPPORT, ...ETC.